Calm within the Storm 6/2/11

Dear Di.
Summer is here. Praise God!
Welcome dear Summer. I embrace your warmth joyfully.
Anyway, in the last few days, I had some rather significant anxiety related to my Global Health planning Class and getting the project done, and so out the window went all my mid-year resolved and plans for myself - it was as though I momentarily lost control of myself and let the stress take over. But Dear Di, at the end of the day, every thing turned out to be okay, did it not? It is a common theme I've identified in myslef - losing control in the face of stress.
I ought to learn that it will all work out one way or the other and not bow down to stress and her untoward children.

Another thing - I was lying to myself, deceiving myself, that "tomorro, once this is over, I'll exercise." Oh Dear Di, there is nothing like "tomorrow i'll d this thing or that." It is Today, it is now, it is here that I have the opportunity to do the Great things I want and I ought to do them today, here and now because Today is all I really have.
To be continued...
EI

Suffering

Dear Di.
There is so much suffering in the world. How I wish for comfort for the broken-hearted and wounded.

Retrospective Journalling

5/7/07 1155am Great Tiredness

Oh, I just have so much to say, but I don’t know if this is the right time to say it, given that I have a final in about 2 hours which I haven’t even read  much for. Mind you, I had little or no interest or pleasure in that class anyway. Anyway, I just feel tired, I’m sure my BP is low because I feel this great tiredness coming over me and I just want to rest. I won’t say much now because my heart isn’t completely in this write-up and I hate half-arse things. It’s all or nothing for me so, until later. And I hate that profanity is so much on my lips these days.

March On

Dear Reader: Here are some Journal entry titles from this previous month of March

3/2/11 0439: Hungry for Love

3/2/11 1935: When You feel like a failure and things like that

3/3/11 0802: Happy

3/6/11 0550: The end of Peace

0734: Continuation/continued

3/12/11 0857: Headache

3/12/11 2057: In search of Joy

3/17/11 ~2000: My new number and other things like my future plans and goals and hopes and dreams

3/18/11 1730: Untitled

3/19/11 1830: Calling in sick

3/21/11 1955: "Keep Some"

3/2311 ~ 2140: It's the little things

3/24/11 2200: The deafening silence

3/25/11 1345: Don't postpone Joy. Or Life.

3/26/11 0802: Don't expect what you do not give

3/27/11 0020: Solitude and Furlough

3/27/11 1500: Airport Chronicles Continued...

3/29/11 2016: I had Someone once...

3/29/11 2212: On the Subject of Love...
Love never dies a natural death
It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source
It dies of blindness
And errors
And Betrayals
It dies of illness and wounds
It dies of eariness
Of Witherings
Of Tarnishings - Anin

3/30/11 2215: Faith with deeds

It's the little things 3/23/11 ~0940pm

Dear Diary.
I've come to start realizing and valuing the little things and are learning not to take them for granted. Case in point: I was learning Russian and beginning to do quite well and was rather taken by the language, until I decided to miss on class, and then another, until I dropped the whole Russian entirely. See how the little events can influence the future? Or, look at my exercising - one day I decided to miss one work-out sessiona nd next thing I knew, my whole work-out and exercise schedule have been entirely dirupted and it is taking such seemingly great effort to restore me back to where I was. From Today, I will no longer despise the day of small things but continue to work hard at them and not underestimate the value of "little things" which really aren't that little.

Bienvenue...

Well, isn't this dee-liteful.
I think it is high time I got a blog. Just because. Just because I want to.
As if my private life isn't public enough already.
Anyway, we'll see how things go.